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06 November 2009 @ 08:24 pm
[TWFanFic] time gave both darkness and dreams to you (Jack/John, (Ianto))  

time gave both darkness and dreams to you;

Jack/John, (Ianto);

U-Rated, 345words, set post TW:COE;
No matter how far he runs, no matter how long he runs for, he'll never be able to run from the memories.


Jack sits awake, his eyes a burning itch that won’t go away as he stares bleary-eyed at the far wall, a forgotten cigarette sitting droopily between his index and middle fingers, the building head of ash hanging precariously as it’s allowed to burn away, smoke curling up in a lazy stream to tickle at his nostrils- inhale, exhale, inhale- he barely notices it as he stares unseeingly ahead at nothing and everything, his eyes seeing what his mind remembers and nothing more… nothing more…

Fingers pressing to the flesh of his side has him blinking slowly back to the here and now and he turns a slanted gaze to the man lying beside him on a bed sex-rumpled and smelling of stale sweat and cigarettes.

“You going to finish that?” John asks softly, watching carefully.

Jack looks down at the half-smoked cigarette he holds before passing it over wordlessly, his gaze returning to the far wall as he both tries to and tries not to remember.

“Jack,” John calls to him, huffing a sigh of mild frustration as he pushes himself upwards, pressing a kiss to Jack’s bare shoulder.

“You’re thinking of him.” It’s not a question. Jack closes his eyes and breathes deeply.

“You loved him?” John asks, unusually serious.

“Yes,” Jack breathes, the word an unhesitant whisper. He does not even have to think it to know the truth of it. He loved him. He loved him with everything and still he gave him nothing; nothing but doubts and insecurities and questions Jack would never let himself answer.

If he could go back…

If he could do it all again…

If he could just turn back time…

“Do you think he’d want to see you like this?” John’s voice pulls his attention back to the present and Jack looks at him with uncharacteristically moist eyes.

“It hardly matters now,” Jack says, shucking the sheets which have tangled around his legs, and leaving the room.

“It matters,” John says, slumping back down onto the bed and lifting Jack’s cigarette to his lips. “It matters.”

[ end. ]
[ Written for Caspe-Wri-Mo '09 ]

hab318princess on November 7th, 2009 01:06 pm (UTC)
it matters... wonderful
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Ianto; yescs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:36 pm (UTC)
:) thank you!

CS WhiteWolf
Bansheekelticbanshee on November 7th, 2009 04:06 pm (UTC)
It's good to see I'm not the only one who sees Jack ending up with John after CoE... and John trying to get Jack out of the dark place where he ended after Ianto's death.

Good ending. Of course it matters!
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack; torchwoodcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:41 pm (UTC)
thank you! I do believe that John might be the one of only people who can understand Jack after what happened in COE, and who can help bring him back. I'm glad you share the sentiment :)

CS WhiteWolf
Bansheekelticbanshee on November 8th, 2009 09:45 pm (UTC)
Yep. John may be a heartless bastard when he wants, but I do believe he cares for Jack, and would understand him and kick his ass back into gear if need be. I did write my own version of it back in the day, after the initial shock...

Take care,
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Ianto; bang! bang!cs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 10:34 pm (UTC)
Exactly this! I think they need each other, especially after everything they've both been through.

Just read your fic, very nicely done, in a completely heartbreaking kind of way <33
Bansheekelticbanshee on November 8th, 2009 10:40 pm (UTC)
They have a very disfunctional relationship, but I think they both rely on it more than they are aware of. Hence why John still tried to save Jack from Gray, and why (in my head) Jack would run to John.

Thanks for reading :) I'm glad you enjoyed :) It was heartbreaking to write, particularly the first bits... Served its purpose and made for a really good post-shock therapy...
Nancynancybrown on November 7th, 2009 04:27 pm (UTC)
Ouch, but perfect.
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack Harkness; 2.07cs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:41 pm (UTC)
:) thank you for reading!

CS WhiteWolf
Blackbird Songblackbird_song on November 7th, 2009 05:59 pm (UTC)
Excellent. And yes, ouch. Perfect ending. Thank you for writing this.

Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack; all work no playcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:43 pm (UTC)
and thank you for reading :) I'm really pleased you liked it, even with the 'ouch'!

CS WhiteWolf
teaboyfanteaboyfan on November 7th, 2009 07:36 pm (UTC)
Painful, but hopeful too. At least for Jack; it suggests that John of all people is going to end up with his heart broken. The only thing that would go a little way toward easing the pain of Ianto's loss for me would be for Jack and John to get back together on a more adult level than their past. Your John makes me think that's possible. Thanks for writing.
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack/Ianto; last momentcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:47 pm (UTC)
They did have five years together, and no matter how much they pretended it was all fun and games and sex, you don't spend that much time with someone (forced or not) and not connect with them on a deeper level. Like you, I totally believe that John could be one of the only people to get Jack out of the place he is right now <33

thank you very much for reading :)
CS WhiteWolf
Tessa: KingIantotiggerbrasilf on November 7th, 2009 08:07 pm (UTC)
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack&Ianto; comforting squecs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:48 pm (UTC)
::offers tissues::

thank you for reading, hun!
pike2pike2 on November 8th, 2009 08:44 pm (UTC)
This was beautiful and add to that one of my favourite songs (by Enya) that fits the piece perfectly.

Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack&Ianto; Innovative...cs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 09:52 pm (UTC)
(someone who knows Enya! <33)

thank you so much, I'm glad you liked it :)

CS WhiteWolf
nevercheshirenevercheshire on November 9th, 2009 03:59 am (UTC)
love this, feels very real
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ S3 \\ Jack&Ianto posecs_whitewolf on November 9th, 2009 05:52 pm (UTC)
thank you! I'm really pleased you think so :)

CS WhiteWolf
dynamite with a laser beam: jack and john51stcenturyfox on November 9th, 2009 07:49 am (UTC)
This is fab. I did like the ending, but the way you set the scene at the beginning is what I like most. :)

And side note: I really like your journal design!
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack; oh fuckcs_whitewolf on November 9th, 2009 05:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm particulary partial to the beginning. Infact, I wrote the first paragraph, as it were, before I even knew where the story was going X) everything else just seemed flow on from that.

CS WhiteWolf

(and thanks! It was created by yam @mintyapple :) )

Edited at 2009-11-09 05:58 pm (UTC)
owensheartowensheart on November 9th, 2009 09:20 am (UTC)
Oh that last time........*sigh*

Lovel fic and its nice to see a diferent careing side to John as well.

Well doen:)
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack/Ianto; desperate kisscs_whitewolf on November 9th, 2009 05:56 pm (UTC)
:) I do like to think that Jack and John had an actual relationship together, once upon a time, and that it was strong enough and important enough for Jack to run to him when he's trying to run away from everything else.

Thank you for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
wordsinthewind on November 9th, 2009 09:58 pm (UTC)
You've Been Nominated At Words On The Wind!

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Per the nomination policy, before your story or stories can be added to the nominees’ page, we have a rule that the nominated author must accept the nomination so we know the author doesn’t mind being nominated.

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Just let me know, thanks!

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Campaspecs_whitewolf on November 9th, 2009 10:11 pm (UTC)
Re: You've Been Nominated At Words On The Wind!
Hey there,

Though I'm quite happy to "accept ALL nominations that EVER come in" for me, I was wondering what category I've been nominated for first of all? And am I allowed to know who nominated me/why? Just for curiosity sake!

CS WhiteWolf

wordsinthewind on November 9th, 2009 10:39 pm (UTC)
Re: You've Been Nominated At Words On The Wind!
Actually the person who nominated you (and I'm not releasing names just because I'm not sure people want their names released, just in case) but the person, she forgot to check the categories she wanted to nominate you in so :) I wanted to know which you think it should go in.

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Campaspecs_whitewolf on November 9th, 2009 10:45 pm (UTC)
Re: You've Been Nominated At Words On The Wind!
Oh gosh, well... I think it probably only fits into "Angst fic"? lol. I've no ideas otherwise XD

Sure, add me to the mailing list, my email is up on my profile if you need that.

And I'll see what I can do about the pimpage ;)
SamuelJamessamueljames on November 10th, 2009 09:35 pm (UTC)
Very nicely done. It's good that John is there for him and understands Jack's history.
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Ianto; crying in the raincs_whitewolf on November 14th, 2009 01:19 pm (UTC)
I felt as though John would be one of the few people left in Jack's life who could understand that even though he was running away, he still needed someone to be running to.

Thanks for reading!
CS WhiteWolf