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05 November 2009 @ 11:31 pm
[MerlinFanFic] never quite learned how to swim (Merlin/Arthur)  

never quite learned how to swim;

Implied Merlin/Arthur;

U-Rated, 523words, spoilers/coda: 2.07 The Witchfinder;

Based on the trailer for the upcoming episode. I just wanted to get this wee snippet out before canon completely ruined it for me, either by not having a moment like this, or by doing it way better than I ever could ;D Enjoy!



“You once said you'd never lie to me,” Arthur tells him matter-of-factly, though his gaze is averted and he stands just out of reach of Merlin who clings to the bars of his dungeon prison, staring imploringly towards him.


“I never lied,” Merlin promises him; his tone beseeching Arthur to believe him, to believe in him, to just so much as look at him.


“What would you call it then?” Arthur asks, almost casually. Merlin can see the way Arthur’s fingers curl into fists and the way his jaw tightens as he endeavours to maintain his air of indifference.


“Arthur-,” Merlin pleads but his words fall short and he finds that he doesn’t have an answer to Arthur’s question.


“What, Merlin?” Arthur inclines his head, eyes finally finding his own and Merlin sees the glint of anger and betrayal shining there. It is his turn to avert his gaze from Arthur’s open stare.


“What would you call this all but a lie?” Arthur presses, arms swinging wide to encompass everything and nothing all at once.


“It's not a lie,” Merlin protests, “It was never a lie. Arthur, I was just scared. I…”


“I thought you trusted me.” Arthur says softly, interrupting his babbling as he trips over the words he’s trying to use to explain.


“I do. Please, Arthur, I do.” Merlin’s fingers flex upon the bars, palms sweaty with a new kind of fear. He looks at Arthur and Arthur looks at him.


“Then why didn't you tell me?” The question is barked out accusingly and Merlin flinches at the sound of it echoing around the dungeons.


“How could I?” He snaps back, wanting to be angry in return but unable to keep it up. What should have been an accusatory shout of his own soon became a desperate quest for his own answers as he whispered his next words.


“How could I tell you when so much as a whiff of magic on the air had your father baying for blood?”


“I would have protected you.” Arthur states like it’s the most obvious answer in the world. Merlin feels a familiar frustration by Arthur’s ability to simplify these things.


“From your own father? From the king? For a servant?” Merlin scoffs openly at the notion though a part of him quivers at the truth he hears in Arthur’s voice.


“Yes!” Arthur cries out. “Damn you,” he whispers, “yes.”


“I could never have asked that of you.” Merlin breathes, shaking his head sadly.


“That's the thing, Merlin. You've never had to.” The words hang in the air between them and Merlin lets out a slow breath, heart thudding against his chest as he realises just how grave a mistake he’s made.


“I- I'm-,” he tries to apologise but Arthur is having none of it.


“Save it.” He raises a hand and Merlin falls silent; surprised both by the gesture and his inclination to obey it. He shifts, uncertain.


“Arthur, please-,” he tries again, but Arthur only shakes his head and turns on his heel, walking away.


Merlin doesn’t call out to him as he watches Arthur leave the dungeons without another word.


[ end. ]

[ Written for Caspe-Wri-Mo ’09 ]

absinthefairy88absinthefairy88 on November 5th, 2009 11:53 pm (UTC)
I can actually see it happening just like this.

Which makes me sad :(
Campaspe: Merlin \\ Merlin; stokes of colourcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:05 pm (UTC)
Alas there was no moment like this in the actual episode (though, damn, it was so good I don't even mind!) but I'm so glad you thought this could have worked for it :)

(Arthut would totally have forgiven him! <33)
thank you for reading, bb!
Tangles: Merlin 2entangled_now on November 6th, 2009 05:03 pm (UTC)
I can see it happening like this too. You made it so lovely, but it still broke me.
Campaspe: Merlin \\ Merlin; smirky facecs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:06 pm (UTC)

although we didn't get a moment like this in the actual episode, I'm glad you could see it as a potential scene :) ...I have great faith that Arthur would have gone back for him!

thank you!
archaeologist_darchaeologist_d on November 6th, 2009 07:20 pm (UTC)
That was great. I could really see this happening, especially after last week when Arthur warned Merlin about getting arrested.
Campaspe: Merlin \\ Merlin; flash of goldcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:07 pm (UTC)
thank you! I'm glad it worked for you (even if the episode itself totally passed up on having a scene like this!) it seems kind of fitting after all Arthur's warnings, doesn't it? heh.

CS WhiteWolf
becsxbecsx on November 6th, 2009 09:27 pm (UTC)
Oh my.. I can really see this happening. Gosh if we have a moment remotely like this tomorrow I'm going to cry like a baby!
Campaspe: Merlin \\ Merlin; broodycs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:10 pm (UTC)
X) thank you! Alas no tissues were needed (on the Arthur/Merlin front at least) but I'm glad you liked this wee snippet regardless.

CS WhiteWolf
dk323@LJ: Arthur 2x06 [sitting]dk323 on November 6th, 2009 09:55 pm (UTC)
Oh, I can see this happening. Based on Arthur's actions in giving Merlin a chance to escape in 2x06, I could see Arthur doing likewise when Merlin's magic is revealed.

Unfortunately, Merlin may not be ready yet to instill that much trust in Arthur - to willingly reveal his magic to him. :(

I enjoyed this. :)
Campaspe: Merlin \\ Merlin&Arthur; hugcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:13 pm (UTC)
It seems like everytime we get close to having Merlin revealed, we never get *the* big reveal. Woe!

I would like to think that when the time does come though, that Arthur (no matter how shocked or betrayed he feels) will still do everything in his power to protect Merlin like he always has :)

And who knows. Maybe one day Merlin will extend his trust to Arthur ahead of time?

X) thank you for reading!
CS WhiteWolf

Eos Roseeosrose on November 7th, 2009 01:10 am (UTC)
Does Arthur not realize that the best way to guilt Merlin is to prove his fears false? That is, to rescue him without a lot of dramatics? There can be sulking after Merlin is free... Sulking that leads to guilting Merlin into comfort sex and lots of apologetic blow jobs... *has been reading too much porn*
Campaspe: Merlin \\ I shall call you squishycs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:15 pm (UTC)
XD Arthur is totally coming back for Merlin! And whilst Merlin is tripping over himself trying to apologise, Arthur will totally be forced to kiss him quiet and well, we all know how eagre Merlin is to please people! ;D

heh. thank you for reading! and there is no such thing as too much porn!

CS WhiteWolf
brigs: cum-a-lotimshi on November 7th, 2009 06:15 am (UTC)
poor arthur! poor merlin!
this is sooo sad!
Campaspe: Merlin \\ Arthur; in the dungeonscs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:16 pm (UTC)
<33 thank you!

If it's any consolation, in my mind Arthur totally goes back for him and saves him from his grizzly fate.

CS WhiteWolf
mrct1994 on November 7th, 2009 07:22 am (UTC)

Campaspe: Merlin \\ Arthur; hello I love youcs_whitewolf on November 8th, 2009 05:16 pm (UTC)
thank you so much! X)

it pleases me greatly to know you find it so.

CS WhiteWolf
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Campaspe: Merlin \\ Arthur; in the dungeonscs_whitewolf on January 3rd, 2010 04:34 pm (UTC)
I'm sort of glad myself the episode didn't go like this-

(although, I kind of wish Arthur would find out already! I think he'd survive the revelation after a moment or two of drama ;D)

-but it was rather fun to write in a "what if" sense! heh. I like to think Arthur goes back for him in the end!

I'm glad you liked it, thank you :) and your logic sounds perfectly reasoned to me, heh.

CS WhiteWolf