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03 November 2009 @ 11:38 pm
[SPNFanFic] with your halo slipping down (Dean, Castiel, (Lilith))  

with your halo slipping down

Dean, Castiel, (Lilith);

U-Rated, 657words, coda: 4.06;

There is no cure for ghost sickness,

unless you have an angel watching over you.



Leather creaks beneath the sweat of his palms, fingers knuckle-white as they grip too-tightly at the motel room Bible as though it were to be his saving grace.

He hears the Hellhounds barking in the distance, the sounds of their malicious snarling heard over the pounding of his own erratic heartbeat, over even Lilith’s continued taunting that the end is nigh and he’s going back to hell so soon, all too soon, and he’s not ready for that, he’ll never be ready for that, never ever, no, no, he doesn’t want to go, oh god please, and he prays- he prays like he actually believes, prays like it’ll be last thing he ever does, because it is, and oh god, oh god, if that doesn’t scare the shit out of him.


“Please,” he breathes out with a last gasping of breath and Lilith laughs, she laughs just before she screams, a resounding echo of fury sounding suddenly from her tiny child-like body an instant before she disappears, like a wisp of smoke into nothingness, and she is gone, replaced immediately by a sight that strikes an all too familiar terror straight into the heart of him.




Castiel, the angel, who stands where Lilith once stood in her pretty white party dress, staring at him with a dangerous glint to his eye and Dean pushes up on trembling arms, fumbles backwards as Castiel steps towards him, palm outstretched and reaching and Dean feels the lurching of a newer, deeper, more primeval fear surging through him. He scrabbles back, away, legs kicking out and his Bible arm flailing before him as though to ward off Castiel who merely steps closer still.


“No,” he breathes, choking out the word in a repetitive mantra, “No, no, please no,” he begs, unashamedly he begs now, quivering under the touch as Castiel reaches him, reaches out to him, and lays his palm atop Dean’s hand and holds his arm tightly still.


“No, I don’t want to go back,” he shakes his head against the thought, the words, against the knowledge that this is it, that Lilith has been replaced with the image of Castiel only so that he can appreciate the irony of it that much better once he opens his eyes and finds himself knee deep in the bowels of hell.


Castiel, who pulled him from hell and threatened to throw him back in. Castiel, who is speaking words he cannot hear- words he will not hear- through the rush of blood against his ears and the blurring of his vision in denial of this hallucination.


“Don’t make me go back!” Castiel’s hands are on him now, holding, grasping, gripping tight against his animalistic thrashing; panic rising, heart thumping- boom-boom, boom-boom, he feels it, the light-headedness, the nauseous lurching of his stomach before the faint, before the end. He feels it. He knows it. And he is terrified to death of it.


“Don’t- no- no-,”


“Dean!” The sound of his name is a shout through the darkness of his mind, a searing hot flash of pain shooting up his arm as bare flesh meets flesh and Castiel presses his fingers into the palm-print on his arm, holding and gripping and pulling him back from the brink, drawing him up and into his waiting arms.


Dean is jerked back into the moment, back into the now, his body shuddering as he clings almost desperately to the creature before him.


“Dean,” Castiel calls to him again, his voice as calm and level as it always is.


“Don’t make me go back,” Dean whispers in answer, exhausted, voice hoarse from his screaming and Castiel squeezes his hands in reassurance seconds before Dean’s eyes roll and his body gives into ungraceful unconsciousness.


“No,” Castiel whispers into the now-quiet of the room, holding Dean closer still as he turns his gaze slowly heavenward. “I won’t make you go back.”


The words sound dangerously like a promise.


[ end. ]

[ Written for Caspe-Wri-Mo ’09 ]


absinthefairy88: dean pieabsinthefairy88 on November 4th, 2009 12:04 am (UTC)
This is how that scene should have gone.

I like Protective!Castiel :D
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Cas & Daemoncs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I was waiting for Castiel to show up all through this episode and found it really quite strange that he never put in an appearance to save Dean at all.

In my canon though, this totally happened XD

Louquantumdoll on November 4th, 2009 11:38 pm (UTC)
Awww, that was lovely. I loved Cas being so reassuring towards Dean at the end. And is that a APC inspired title..? *gives author cookies*
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; I am the onecs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:46 pm (UTC)
::munches cookies happily::

it just seemed really fitting, no? ;)

and thank you! I really believe that Castiel must've had something to do with this episode, he'd never let Dean get so close to death without a little intervention!

CS WhiteWolf
Kevin Jonesmulder200 on November 4th, 2009 11:44 pm (UTC)
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; his trapcs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)

CS WhiteWolf
Syrinthsyrinth on November 4th, 2009 11:58 pm (UTC)
I really liked this. Hell I was wondering what Cas was up to in that episode, I know he can't be everywhere at once but he seriously dropped the ball that time. lol
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean; worriedcs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:47 pm (UTC)
Exactly! Bless Sam and Bobby for trying, but their plan really was a terribly desperate one! XD I like to think that maybe Castiel was there, we just didn't see him doing his thing, heh.

Thanks for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
laurapetrilaurapetri on November 5th, 2009 12:04 am (UTC)

Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean; Castiel- my constacs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:48 pm (UTC)
thank you! ♥

CS WhiteWolf
octobersghosts: pic#94658184octobersghosts on November 5th, 2009 12:11 am (UTC)
Ooooh, that was spooky. Poor Dean. He's been through too much in his young life. Cas was probably thinking, "Oh my gee, no way I'd ever make you back there. I totally couldn't do that cause I love you so much" . . . if Cas talked like me, hahaha.
octobersghostsoctobersghosts on November 5th, 2009 12:13 am (UTC)
make you go back there*
:P I didn't notice that lol.
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean&Anna; kisscs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:50 pm (UTC)
XD neither did I actually!
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean&Castiel; dreamingcs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:49 pm (UTC)
XD Castiel was totally thinking like that (or something like that anyway, hehe!) I just don't believe he'd do anything to hurt Dean, not now anyway.

Thank you! I'm glad you liked it :)
CS WhiteWolf
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Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; damn hot angelcs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:51 pm (UTC)
Word on that! Dean finds faith on his "deathbed" and the only person to show up is Lilith? So not on! heh.

I'm glad you found this to your liking :) it's how I would have loved the episode to go.

CS WhiteWolf
SparseParsley: Awesome!Chastitysparseparsley on November 5th, 2009 01:21 am (UTC)
Oh wow, that would have been such an awesome addition to that episode!

Very nice!
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean; rissencs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you :) I'm really glad you think so!

CS WhiteWolf
lover all aloneinvisiblelove on November 5th, 2009 05:39 am (UTC)
This was great. I think I'm going to make it my personal canon, in fact ;)
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean&Castiel; stop itcs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:52 pm (UTC)
::high fives::

you and me both ;) heh.

thank you for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
happy is as happy does: the voice says - Supernaturalhappywriter06 on November 5th, 2009 07:07 am (UTC)
I can picture this clearly in my head. I wish it had happened like this.
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean&Castiel \\ do you tcs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:53 pm (UTC)
me too! but maybe it did and we just didn't get to see it happen? because, let's face it, Sam and Bobby's plan really was terrible! hehe.

Thank you!
CS WhiteWolf
denazia on November 5th, 2009 03:25 pm (UTC)
Beautiful and touching. Definitely how it should have happened. I kept waiting for it to happen but it didn't. I prefer your version.
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; birdscs_whitewolf on November 6th, 2009 06:55 pm (UTC)
:) thank you, I'm so happy that you enjoyed it!

I really wish something like this had happened too, but at least we have fanfiction to correct these things, heh.

CS WhiteWolf
Holly: watching over you v.spn //racheldinozzolittlehollyleaf on November 10th, 2009 08:33 pm (UTC)
Fantastic! I've been meaning to request a Dean/Cas alternative to that scene for ages and volia, you provide without me even needing to :) Just how I pictured it as well and with a punchy ending line. I love it :D
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Dean&Castiel; dreamingcs_whitewolf on November 14th, 2009 01:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I was expecting to see Castiel turn up in this episode but was very much surprised that there wasn't so much as a mention of heavenly intervention what with Dean being inches away from death. tut.

I'm glad this worked for you :)
CS WhiteWolf
feyathene: pic#117329313feyathene on June 2nd, 2012 01:11 pm (UTC)
So this has been integrated into my personal head canon now. Thank you. ~memorizes~
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; his trapcs_whitewolf on June 2nd, 2012 01:55 pm (UTC)
:D thank you very much!

I'm glad you found it to your liking, and to your personal canon too! That's such a wonderful compliment. :)

CS WhiteWolf