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27 March 2009 @ 07:03 pm
X-Over: SPN/TW: Pale Shelter [Castiel, Ianto]  
[Pale Shelter | X-Over: TW/SPN | Ianto, Castiel | U-Rated | 644words | for erin_gileswho prompted for a “crossover with Ianto and Castiel”]
a/n: spoilers for Torchwood Series Two finale.

The church is empty, save for one. In a pew at the back of the room sits a man with his head bent in prayer. He does not acknowledge the creaking of heavy oak doors as they are opened and closed, not the soft squelch of wet footsteps as they tread their way with an unsteady pace towards the alter of candles at the front of the church.

Ianto’s hand shakes as he lights first one then two of the candles and falls to his knees where he stands. Tears streak down his face and mingle with the rain water already dripping from his hair as he turns his face heavenwards and bites back the sob sitting at the tip of his tongue.

His fingers curl firmly into one another as he presses his palms together, he grips until his knuckles turn white and his hands twinge with the hurt; he feels none of it, not in comparison to the hurt eating away at his very core, nor the pain of loss and grief that is tearing up his soul and wrenching at his heart with every aching breath he heaves through tightly clenching teeth.

Why God? He wants to yell and cry and curse the heavens. Why? They’re dead. Dead and gone and he cannot help but consider for even a moment the possibility that he is cursed in some way, that maybe there is someone up there playing a really sick and cosmic joke on him. Canary Warf was hard. Losing Lisa harder. Now Toshiko and Owen are gone and he just wants a goddamned answer as to why. Must he lose everyone he loves? Must he carry this never-ending grief inside of him for an eternity and beyond?

He looks to the flicker of the candles he has lit and closes his eyes. He’s lost track of how many souls he’s come here to pray for. He wonders if maybe he should have lit one for himself. He lifts his joined hands to his mouth and whispers words of prayer into his white-knuckled grip, he stutters and gasps over those words but the meaning- the desperation, he is sure- filters though.

A clap of thunder overhead and the door behind his slams wide open. Ianto twists on his knees, hands grappling instinctively for a firearm he does not carry, eyes growing wide with disbelief as the man he spotted upon entering the church stands now in the open doorway, a beige trench coat flapping wildly with the wind and rain blowing in from the outside.

A flash of lightning and Ianto gasps aloud as the shadow of wings paint themselves across the length of the building, large and outstretched and Ianto’s hands fall limply to his sides as he watches- powerless to move- as the being walks towards him, his pace steady and measured till he stops before Ianto and stares down at him without expression.

The- angel, Ianto is half-convinced already, it’s a feeling, a deep-rooted need to believe what his eyes are telling him is the truth- it reaches down to him, a palm laid gently upon his crown and Ianto shudders, eyes wide and desperate as he stares up into the fathomless blues of the gaze meeting his own.

“Ianto Jones,” the voice is calm and measured and Ianto holds his breath to hear every enunciation as he speaks, “you have not been forsaken,” he says and the words wash over him like a benediction, “this hurt, it will not last forever,” Ianto shivers at the words, at the promise in them.

“God has a plan for you yet, Ianto Jones. Believe.” He is gone then, in the blink of an eye, and Ianto is left staring down the length of an empty church.

Unseen, behind him, a third candle springs to life and flickers in the wind.

mood: complacentcomplacent
Erin Giles: stock - road may leaderin_giles on March 27th, 2009 07:20 pm (UTC)
Your post went a bit screwy but I still read and I loves. *snuggles* lovely little angsty fic hun. *grins* You know me and my obsession with Ianto's beliefs and this fits wonderfully into that category! XD
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; on his backcs_whitewolf on March 27th, 2009 07:28 pm (UTC)
(Is the screwy okay now?)

::snugs you:: Am glad you approve X) I adore the idea of Ianto being a believer and having this kind of religion/faith, I'm not sure why, he just comes across as the sort of wounded soul that needs a God to turn to.

moryssa: Captain Jackmoryssa on March 27th, 2009 07:22 pm (UTC)

Too much pretty in one scene!

I do have to say, though... one line in this triggered a thought: (well, actually it's a couple of lines) Is Ianto's attraction to Jack the fact that Jack can't die? After his loss of Lisa, did he subconsciously latch onto Jack so that he wouldn't have to go through that pain of death again?

Edited at 2009-03-27 07:23 pm (UTC)
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Jack; Captaincs_whitewolf on March 27th, 2009 07:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you, hun!

There was a line in this that I removed which listed Jack as someone he'd lost, but then whom he'd gotten back. I hadn't considered that his attraction to Jack would be for the immortality side of things, as I like to think he was attracted to Jack before he found out that Jack could not die. Could the knowledge have made him love him more? Need him more? Who knows. I'm torn between thinking that Ianto would be thankful that he'd never lose Jack and disheartened that he'd lose him at the same time.

Hmmm... you've got me thinking here! X)
moryssa: TW-bowchickamoryssa on March 27th, 2009 08:33 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I was going to say that in my original note and then erased it-- that I think the attraction between Jack and Ianto goes beyond that, especially since Ianto didn't find out until the end of S1. But maybe his attraction started as hero-worship ('cause, dude... who DOESN'T hero-worship Jack?) and then was subconsciously made stronger when he realized that Jack could *be* this super-human person and could save the world and make a difference in other people's lives-- and wouldn't have to worry about the danger involved.

I think Ianto's probably a little of both... he knows that he doesn't really have to worry about Jack when it comes to *death*, but he's met former loves from Jack's life and knows that Jack could move on at any time, and he'd lose him that way. I imagine it's a very daunting thing to be in love with Jack Harkness, and Ianto seems like the sort who would be plagued with self-doubt.
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ 1.04 \\ triocs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:20 pm (UTC)
I like this theory, that Ianto fell in love first with the man and then the immortality- but at the same time is trying to fight his heart and maintain the distance... because, really, how can you hold on to a man like Jack Harkness?

Poor baby <33
absinthefairy88absinthefairy88 on March 27th, 2009 08:36 pm (UTC)
Hereth be my daily dose of angsty goodness
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; lampostcs_whitewolf on March 28th, 2009 06:22 pm (UTC)
<33 glad to have been of service, bb!
mrs_cj_harknessmrs_cj_harkness on March 28th, 2009 11:07 am (UTC)
Oh my god, you ... Castiel ... and Ianto Jones ... :O *dies*
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Ianto; Earpiececs_whitewolf on March 28th, 2009 06:23 pm (UTC)
This is only the beginning of things to come, I'm sure ;) ::snuggles the boys together::

Heh, thanks, hun!
bewizeficwize on March 28th, 2009 06:36 pm (UTC)
This was very beautiful and powerful. Nicely done.
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; I am the onecs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:20 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much :) I'm glad you found it so.

CS WhiteWolf
haces222 on March 28th, 2009 07:08 pm (UTC)
Adore this it brings together my two loves Ianto Jones and Castiel

Love the fact Castiel is immediatly recognized by his trench coat
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ 2.05 \\ Killer Iantocs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:22 pm (UTC)
Mine also! I'm looking forward to playing with these boys together some more ;)

Heh. We all love and recognise that trench coat now, I simply couldn't resist using it to introduce Castiel, heh.

Thanks for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
Charlotte: Dru - Cryingdharkapparition on March 28th, 2009 07:34 pm (UTC)
*weeps quietly
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; hallelujahcs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:22 pm (UTC)
::pets and passes hanky::

Thanks for reading :)
CS WhiteWolf
Rhi: Castielvipersweb on March 28th, 2009 07:39 pm (UTC)
I really like this. I like how you use Ianto's faith in this, and how he still has faith, despite it all.
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ Ianto; Earpiececs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I love the idea of Ianto having faith, and that even through the really hard times in his life he turns to- instead of away from- his faith for comfort.

CS WhiteWolf
Kristinamrs_groban on March 28th, 2009 08:35 pm (UTC)
omg, that was gorgeous. i loved it. i am a sucker for castiel, he's so lovely. I would praise God if he sent him to me.

Lovely story. Great work.
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; gardiancs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:24 pm (UTC)
Wouldn't we all ;) heh.

Thanks so much! I'm glad you enjoyed reading this piece.

Ta for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
lazy_8s: bananaslazy_8s on March 29th, 2009 02:07 am (UTC)
You fused TW and SPN!!! Awesome fic, featuring two beloved characters. I adored it!
Campaspe: Torchwood \\ 2.12 \\ Coffeecs_whitewolf on March 29th, 2009 05:25 pm (UTC)
:D Well when you've got two awesome boys like Ianto and Castiel, it's only logical to want them to play with each other! heh. I simply couldn't resist.

Thanks for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
Kevin Jonesmulder200 on November 12th, 2009 09:27 pm (UTC)
Nice! I never thought of an TW/SPN crossover but it totally works!

Definitely has the tones of something more.
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; fbics_whitewolf on November 14th, 2009 04:05 pm (UTC)
thank you! Ianto and Castiel are two of my favourite characters and I was quite excited at the chance to write them in something together.

Very pleased to hear you think it worked well :) I'm working on a larger piece at the moment ft the pair of them, so hopefully I can pull that off too!

CS WhiteWolf
Brilliance of the Moonlongbca on November 19th, 2009 06:11 pm (UTC)
Nice entrance Cas!
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; wingedcs_whitewolf on November 22nd, 2009 12:13 am (UTC)

Castiel just loves to make an entrance, doesn't he? XD

thank you for reading!
CS WhiteWolf
aislinamara: (spn) impalaaislinamara on March 25th, 2010 02:00 am (UTC)
This was really interesting. I liked it.

Also, your header makes me smile. :)

Edited at 2010-03-25 02:01 am (UTC)
Campaspe: Supernatural \\ Castiel; I am the onecs_whitewolf on March 25th, 2010 07:00 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I was just playing around with the idea of crossing over these two verses; I kind of like how it turned out myself, heh.

XD I loved that scene so much, and those boys are just too pretty together that I couldn't resist having them head my journal!

CS WhiteWolf
C. M. Kildarecmkildare on October 1st, 2011 07:31 pm (UTC)
This is very sweet and made my day! :)