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28 November 2008 @ 11:02 pm
nov 29: dwfanfic: born to walk alone [Gen. TenthDoctor]  

born to walk alone;
Gen. Tenth Doctor;
U-Rated; 200words; Post S4 , no spoilers.

And in the end he loses them all. And it is as the black-horse nightmare of the apocalypse galloping towards him in a rush of fear-guilt-damnation that drown him in these humane emotions so foreign yet so familiar, so comforting warm and searing hurtfulness as they prickle at his skin with needle sharp pins of pain and tears, so unfamiliar, so humanly-alien to him as he curls foetal–tight and soundless whimpering in the silence of his tardis,- only lasting companion throughout it all,- the quiet of the world about him loud in the darkness of the night that rushes by in another sleepless sleep time that leaves him desperate and keening-crying, itching eyed and dead-man-walking, it’s not enough. It can never be enough. Not like this- he wants to scream- not like this, no, no-no-no… But he is the doctor. the Doctor. the Doctor. And he survives- year after year after century-millennium-eternity- destined to be alone, always alone; lonesome and companionless, to spend his immortality longing for a lasting companionship- these lives so fickle-fleeting and quick to end, leaving him behind after the bitter sip at sweat life to death. It will never be enough. It is never enough.

[ end. ]
[ written as part of Caspe-Wri-Mo

mood: crankycranky
music: everybody hurts rem
Erin Giles: the hub - kai/gareth hugserin_giles on November 28th, 2008 11:13 pm (UTC)
Awww poor Doctor. *hugs him* You just keep coming out with more and more emotional pieces hun. Another brill one. :) *hugs*
Campaspe: Dr Who \\ Jethro; boredcs_whitewolf on December 14th, 2008 11:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you, darling! I think it helps that my default mode seems to be set at "angst" ;)

Joulez217: Hug!Hugjoulez217 on November 28th, 2008 11:19 pm (UTC)
Aww, that was just, the poor Doctor!!! Lovely work as usual Caspey, butawww the poor Doctor!
Campaspe: Dr Who \\ Ross Jenkins; red capcs_whitewolf on December 14th, 2008 11:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad it worked for you, hun :) the poor Doctor indeed!

absinthefairy88absinthefairy88 on November 28th, 2008 11:23 pm (UTC)
Poor Doctor!

You would think a part of him would accept that he lives on while others don't.

Not a choice I'd like to have - to be either lonely for all eternity or let people into your life and your heart only to have to watch each and every one age and die while you go on.

Campaspe: Harry Potter \\ Who stole the cookie?cs_whitewolf on December 14th, 2008 11:03 pm (UTC)
I don't think it's something you'd ever get used to. I think the poor guy must always be scared of losing another companion even as he goes out of his way to aquire them. :(( poor man. It's even more tragic that he doesn't accept Jack anymore, when he's the only person able to be that everlasting companion now.

Thank you, hun!
mrs_cj_harknessmrs_cj_harkness on November 29th, 2008 09:45 am (UTC)
N'awww poor doctor. ::Huggles the Doctor::
Campaspe: Doctor Who \\ 8 Dressed Upcs_whitewolf on December 14th, 2008 11:03 pm (UTC)
::pets him::

He is such a bundle of angst, I know!

Thank you!
Rhi: ten and lonelyvipersweb on December 2nd, 2008 07:38 pm (UTC)
ouch! yet a perfect look at the Doctor.
Campaspe: Dr Who \\ Jethro; woobie facecs_whitewolf on December 14th, 2008 11:04 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading :)

CS WhiteWolf
tempusdominus10tempusdominus10 on December 4th, 2008 02:03 pm (UTC)
Campaspe: Dr Who \\ Jeremy Baines is sexy creepycs_whitewolf on December 14th, 2008 11:05 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading!

CS WhiteWolf